Lost

i have no idea what iz wrong with me for the past few monthz...am i facing a change that'z making people not to like me in a certain way or what?? i realli realli don't know who i am these dayz..one of my friend told me that i'm less caring then before is this true? but on the other hand if people think of me that way, i guess it'z maybe because i've been sooo caring last time but all i get in return was just not what i expected & right now why should i care alot when what i get iz just sadnezz n shit...gosh!! sometimez i feel that itz alwayz about them & never about me..i just hope someday they could just get that into their headz i mean hey i've done my part as a friend & all but don't you think i deserve better? i really just can't imagine that i've been in a fight with A & KS this year & more over it'z just the beginning of the year..izzit me or izzit because they are just being selfish & all?? seriously i'm realli lost in this...friendz tell me to take it easy & all but i just don't know how...& yes i keep tellin people this but i myself can't even handle it..gosh now i know how my other friendz feel..crappinezzz!! now in my mind itz just tellin me to move on & just forget about the past & start fresh but i don't know wheter is it possible for me to do it...the mind iz tellin me but my actionz can be different..oh well in an overall i'm just lost...friendz or anybody who haz any comment or advice for me..just drop me a line or two at d tagboard or the comment thingy....